Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Faith (or the Lack Thereof)

(Image courtesy of Behind Blue Eyes)

(Preface - If I heard a friend saying what I'm about to say, I'd probably bonk her upside the head & tell her to get over it. Accordingly, please be kind in the comments.) ;)

A decade ago, there was no doubt in my mind that I would one day find my soulmate & get married. I didn't know who he was, where he was from, or when I would meet him, but my fifteen-year old self believed that I would meet him.

Now - after falling in love twice & seeing both relationships come to naught, I've lost that faith. I am not sure that I will meet the right person. The certainty of a decade ago is gone.

I know what you might say: I'm only 25 & I'm overreacting. I understand that - I do.
I still have hope, I want to be clear on that. I am still hopeful, but I can't be sure. I wish I didn't feel this way.

I'm left without faith. I miss it.

4 comments:

Lori said...

Stacey - as cliche as it sounds it will happen when you least expect it.

Caity said...

I am feeling the EXACT same way and I truly understand how you feel. Let's hope our friends are right!

hetherjw said...

That isn't even a loss of faith. Just a slight dip.

Go to http://blog.iblamethepatriarchy.com and do a search for marriage. As long as you aren't thinking like that you haven't lost faith yet.

Cathryn said...

::hugs:: you know how it seems like all of art is peppered with lonliness and heartbreak? that's cause you're not the only one who has felt that way. Chin up, tho, kid - you know as well as I do that you won't feel this way forever. ::love::