(Image courtesy of Behind Blue Eyes)(Preface - If I heard a friend saying what I'm about to say, I'd probably bonk her upside the head & tell her to get over it. Accordingly, please be kind in the comments.) ;)
A decade ago, there was no doubt in my mind that I would one day find my soulmate & get married. I didn't know who he was, where he was from, or when I would meet him, but my fifteen-year old self believed that I would meet him.
Now - after falling in love twice & seeing both relationships come to naught, I've lost that faith. I am not sure that I will meet the right person. The certainty of a decade ago is gone.
I know what you might say: I'm only 25 & I'm overreacting. I understand that - I do. I still have hope, I want to be clear on that. I am still hopeful, but I can't be sure. I wish I didn't feel this way.
I'm left without faith. I miss it.