Sometimes, it's a little crowded in here. Charming But Single's recent post about her conflicting opinions on dating reminded me of my own issues here. I, too, have a bit of an internal conflict about dating.
See, there's this one woman - I call her "The Girl in the Pink Dress." She believes in true love & "happily ever after." She pauses in front of bridal boutiques to sigh over the dresses. She wants a white picket fence, golden retriever, and 2.5 kids. She really thought Nick might have been "The One." However, she also thought that AR was surely the one and TM might have been and maybe SM was, as well. She's a little silly that way. :)
Then, there's the other woman. I usually call her something butch, like Sam or Jo or Chris. She wears jeans & drinks beer in bottles. She watches baseball & revels in "the bachelor lifestyle" (as we're calling it @ work this week). She's pretty much resigned to being the cool aunt & dating only for fun.
Both of these women are me & neither of them is me. The real me is somewhere in between & she's having a hard time deciding where to go from here.
I'm meeting with Nick next week to talk. Basically, I want to explain that The Girl in the Pink Dress doesn't run the show & I was not, in fact, charging full speed down the aisle like he seemed to think I was. Hopefully, that conversation will give me some perspective & help me decide on my next steps.
In the meantime, I realized that I haven't flirted with a boy in a bar for nearly a year. I think I'm about due. Anyone fancy a night on the town on Friday? ;)